Today is a classic do-nothing-day for me - as in I have a lot of free time in my hands to burn my hard-earned money away. My only concern right now is that I have to go to the office tomorrow and finish my work before the boss smokes my cellulite-free ass. I hate it that I have to put in OT but then again, I don't ever do anything on Sundays, so might as well.
I'm thinking, I should enroll for a masteral degree this year. Yeah, I better, I know most of my officemates have enrolled and I cannot (for the life of me!) be left behind. I don't wanna eat their dust thank you very much! I'd rather they contemplate on my skidmarks. Wehehe!
Anyway, I'm torn between going home to Bicol this Holy Week and turning my hard-earned money to smoke (again) or staying in my crappy boardinghouse to endure the company of my Marawi non-friend. Whichisit?! 'Coz if I'm going home, then might as well buy a bus ticket now so I can still avail of good seats on the executive liner. Wehehe, I deliberately dropped that in, I like the roll on my tongue - the executive liner.
Ohgod, I'm still like, torn, can't make a decision. Need to call my mom. MOM!!!!
Ok, question. Why do people tag along to computer shops even if their not really gonna rent one? Don't they get that these shops are like, really compact, I mean, there's just not enough room! And then they get these extra seats and bump those who are actually PAYING to use the facilities of the shop! I mean, WHAT UP?!! And not even the sense to say sorry, geez! Talk about RUDE!!!! Get a clue!
Ok, I'm officially badtrip. Gotta read bryanboy for some catharsis or something.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Monday, March 19, 2007
A Letter to God
Dear God,
First of all, I would like to thank you that you never let me be all by myself to self-destruct. You're always here for me and you never let me down. I know that I overreact to things like I magnify the problems that you let me experience but I really realy appreciate that you watch over me all the time.
This is a rather hard time for me and I just want to have peace and quiet in my life. I don't want to live with people I don't know who don't have the same interests as me, but as I am poor, I might as well cherish the opportunity since I don't have much of a choice right now. I don't wanna sulk, even though i'm tempted. I don't wanna 'coz it will be so ungrateful to you. With all that you do for me and all. At least one consolation is that I know what Liza must have felt now. You know, when she lived with me and Tek and she got really left out 'coz Tek and I are closer.
I still feel somewhat down but I feel that I'm slowly getting better and better. |I mean, just a few more days before Tek's finally home and we're gonna find a new place to live in. Can't wait. But the important thing is that I have to make that Marawi lady (whatever her name is) feel welcome and not hated. I hope i can give off that kind of vibe to her. I just have to remember that it's only a matter of time - a few days before I'm finally out of that house and Tek's home and we're gonna find a new place. I think I already said that. Just gotta keep on repeating it to myself. And I really pray to you God to please don't let us get into each other's nerves. Lord, are you testing my patience? "coz if you are, please help me with it 'coz I'm not that good and I'm not that patient. I hope we get to like each other Lord. I really do now. It's better than wishing or pretending she never existed, I think. Yeah, I think I can do this and please let this work out because I'm willing to make the best out of the situation.
Thank you and I love you. Thank you for the money...
First of all, I would like to thank you that you never let me be all by myself to self-destruct. You're always here for me and you never let me down. I know that I overreact to things like I magnify the problems that you let me experience but I really realy appreciate that you watch over me all the time.
This is a rather hard time for me and I just want to have peace and quiet in my life. I don't want to live with people I don't know who don't have the same interests as me, but as I am poor, I might as well cherish the opportunity since I don't have much of a choice right now. I don't wanna sulk, even though i'm tempted. I don't wanna 'coz it will be so ungrateful to you. With all that you do for me and all. At least one consolation is that I know what Liza must have felt now. You know, when she lived with me and Tek and she got really left out 'coz Tek and I are closer.
I still feel somewhat down but I feel that I'm slowly getting better and better. |I mean, just a few more days before Tek's finally home and we're gonna find a new place to live in. Can't wait. But the important thing is that I have to make that Marawi lady (whatever her name is) feel welcome and not hated. I hope i can give off that kind of vibe to her. I just have to remember that it's only a matter of time - a few days before I'm finally out of that house and Tek's home and we're gonna find a new place. I think I already said that. Just gotta keep on repeating it to myself. And I really pray to you God to please don't let us get into each other's nerves. Lord, are you testing my patience? "coz if you are, please help me with it 'coz I'm not that good and I'm not that patient. I hope we get to like each other Lord. I really do now. It's better than wishing or pretending she never existed, I think. Yeah, I think I can do this and please let this work out because I'm willing to make the best out of the situation.
Thank you and I love you. Thank you for the money...
Thursday, March 1, 2007
As good as it gets
Everyday, my life's pretty much almost the same. I work, then head straight home right after to lie on my bed and watch tv or some DVDs while I eat my dinner (wihich I would buy from a resto or fastfood joints). Then, after an hour or two, my roommate/cousin Tekla, who's constantly putting in over time at work, would arrive to make chika .
No chores, no worries, no responsibilities whatsoever. This is the life of a working single girl. I must admit it's fab!
However, there are still many things I would love to accomplish at this part of my life. First and foremost, I would like to achieve financial freedom fast (as in, NOW NA!) so that I can retire early to do the things I love and not waste my one and only life here on earth. I think that pretty much is doable. I have plans for that and at the same time, I do not renege on my responsibilities to my parents (financial, mostly).
What made me decide to plan for an early retirement and swallow all the bitter pills that come along with it (like not getting married, ever) is that I'm not very good with my work since this is not the place I'm supposed to be. And I'm not actually meeting my full potential in this place if only because of that. But the thing is, I am here. GOD put me here. Now, I'm not saying it's his fault I'm here 'coz it's probably mine in the first place. What I'm saying is, He put me here for a purpose and that is what I should fulfill in order to move on to the next level. Meaning, I'm gonna be here until I'm ready to embrace the next challenge, and hopefully, I get to find my rightful place in life when that time comes.
Man, everyone around me are getting married, having kids, buying cars, getting transferred to other assignments and so on while good ol' little me stays right where I am to grow my resources and acquire considerable wealth (hopefully!). But then, I have do this. I have to plan, to save and invest for the future of my family and my own. By family, I mean, my parents. My bros can take care of themselves. Probably a good part of why I do this is that I'm scared. I'm scared that when the time comes when my ageing parents need money for health care, I will not be able to give them what they need. Inevitable things happen. People grow old and their health becomes frail. I couldn't change the law of nature if I tried, that's why I must do whatever I can to make them feel as comfortable and taken cared of when that time comes. And my fervent prayer is that God does not let the inevitable happen until I'm good and ready. I'm asking for a miracle, I know, but He said; "BE STILL, FOR I AM GOD."
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